I never really expected to meet such AMAZING people in college. I expected another dull 4 years of constant ignorance, loneliness, insecurity, and counting down until graduation. But, no. I like it here. I like college and I just love how it gives me this "free" feeling.
I don't understand why people are so clingy towards their high school lives because I am (In a all honesty) so freaking happy I got over those 4 years. Those years were just... dark. I only wanted to go to school so I could still see the friends I learned to love... and to educate myself. I never really really really liked it there.
I am so sorry.
But in college, I feel like a different person, someone who's more like... me. Sure, I miss my high school friends, but god freaking damn, I DO NOT miss high school at all :)) Silence period? Eh, I'm okay without it.
The all-girls thing? Still okay without it. The friendship with teachers? ...eh hahaha okay sure i'm okay without it. All the free guidance talks? They never really worked for me.
I am so sorry.
But now I feel appreciated and loved. And it's not like they'e required to love me because this love feels smooth. I love these people so much. It burns with the fire of a thousand suns and i'm scared for the only few years I'll be staying in this school. I don't want to lose them.
I've been smiling and laughing a lot.
It feels good :)
